We all experience failures from time to time. Who has not?
(and I believe only those who knows real joy and pain can relate, at some points in life)
2010 2007 2005
1997 1993 1984
1980.
These simple before- and after- processes and faith maintenance formula made mine. The Hope that was never taken out from me by Him who provides created the daily mornings and evenings with little ounce of ease amongst pounds of discomfort, so to speak.
With some help from friends, whom they don't even know they help, the uphill walk went not easy but attained and surpassed. And the Family who will always be there no matter what. (family consists of relatives or close friends treated as family).
Let me start with the Before.
1. Comfort zone. Mindset is all things will go well without true consent from up above. Clouded by the sole selfish objective, the word "wait" seemed not to sink in my thoughts.
2.
And then It has come.
1. It was hard but easy because of undeserved gifts (graces)
2. It gave you thoughts, uncertainties, sadness, even morbid ones probably brought by the active evil one when times are like these.
3. Music I listened to: if I were a rich man, all things are beautiful, we are an offering, God and God Alone, Christmas songs
4. Less talk, lesser smiles, just moving day after day with fervent solitude prayers
5. Pride of not telling the true score. Ashamed of my own failed plans.
6. Humbled to the point that I go back to basics and re- examine life, my being, and He who wills the good for it.
7. If I did not believe then it's even harder as The Rat mentioned in Narnia.
8. I saw myself in the low post.
9. I would want to go Home! And see Mom & Dad. Home seemed to be my safe haven or retreat. Some place of refuge so to speak.
10. I asked about that Home in Heaven. Am I worthy after all?
11. Life not my own I said. I take good times and the bad times.
12. Turn to what? excessive food, pass the time, lust, movies or alcohol. And there are many things to turn to in times of depression. But few will only look into and seek refuge to the only One who can fill one's failure up and put back the joy in the heart again. And let hope for the best and believe.
The After
1. Provisions! Provisions! Without cost I have received; without cost I am to give.” (Mt9)
2. Not without Hope, this was surpassed. And are ready for any next, Enshalla, downturns.
3. Rebound from failure. The pain and the healing in recovery is there.
It is how to get along happily whether I have much or little.
I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything.
I have learned the secret of contentment in every situation.
He is more than enough to cover everything. (by Paul of Tarsus)
Your Mercy is my only Hope.
I want to get on with this life! It is time to give.
I would like to thank here those not thanked and not acknowledged after all:
ElizaJim, Jamesther, Paul, Manuel, Martin, Joy, Bernadette, Erra, Erlou, FEBC, Riza, Harold, Noridah, Angie, Grace, Nira.
(and I believe only those who knows real joy and pain can relate, at some points in life)
2010 2007 2005
1997 1993 1984
1980.
These simple before- and after- processes and faith maintenance formula made mine. The Hope that was never taken out from me by Him who provides created the daily mornings and evenings with little ounce of ease amongst pounds of discomfort, so to speak.
With some help from friends, whom they don't even know they help, the uphill walk went not easy but attained and surpassed. And the Family who will always be there no matter what. (family consists of relatives or close friends treated as family).
Let me start with the Before.
1. Comfort zone. Mindset is all things will go well without true consent from up above. Clouded by the sole selfish objective, the word "wait" seemed not to sink in my thoughts.
2.
And then It has come.
1. It was hard but easy because of undeserved gifts (graces)
2. It gave you thoughts, uncertainties, sadness, even morbid ones probably brought by the active evil one when times are like these.
3. Music I listened to: if I were a rich man, all things are beautiful, we are an offering, God and God Alone, Christmas songs
4. Less talk, lesser smiles, just moving day after day with fervent solitude prayers
5. Pride of not telling the true score. Ashamed of my own failed plans.
6. Humbled to the point that I go back to basics and re- examine life, my being, and He who wills the good for it.
7. If I did not believe then it's even harder as The Rat mentioned in Narnia.
8. I saw myself in the low post.
9. I would want to go Home! And see Mom & Dad. Home seemed to be my safe haven or retreat. Some place of refuge so to speak.
10. I asked about that Home in Heaven. Am I worthy after all?
11. Life not my own I said. I take good times and the bad times.
12. Turn to what? excessive food, pass the time, lust, movies or alcohol. And there are many things to turn to in times of depression. But few will only look into and seek refuge to the only One who can fill one's failure up and put back the joy in the heart again. And let hope for the best and believe.
The After
1. Provisions! Provisions! Without cost I have received; without cost I am to give.” (Mt9)
2. Not without Hope, this was surpassed. And are ready for any next, Enshalla, downturns.
3. Rebound from failure. The pain and the healing in recovery is there.
It is how to get along happily whether I have much or little.
I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything.
I have learned the secret of contentment in every situation.
He is more than enough to cover everything. (by Paul of Tarsus)
Your Mercy is my only Hope.
I want to get on with this life! It is time to give.
I would like to thank here those not thanked and not acknowledged after all:
ElizaJim, Jamesther, Paul, Manuel, Martin, Joy, Bernadette, Erra, Erlou, FEBC, Riza, Harold, Noridah, Angie, Grace, Nira.
